Some words

A few of my poems, or just random thoughts and such.......


Jump in the car
turn the key.
Full gas tank
now I'm free.

Headlights are on
foot's on the gas.
Clear road ahead
nothing more I could ask.

Music is cranked
windows rolled down.
Speeding my way
out of this town.

Tear off my mirror
not looking back.
I need to start over
and get my life on track.

Wasted my time
chasing after you.
But something changed
and that day I knew.

I wasn't for you,
You weren't for me.
It never would've worked
we weren't meant to be.

So I'm leaving,
gotta get out of here.
There's no looking back,
I'm not going to shed a tear.

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Every night I go to bed,
and start to dream of you.
I would force myself to sleep at night,
if I knew those dreams would come true.

I wish my tears could write love songs,
so that before they were through,
you would know just how I really feel,
and how much I care for you.

I often tend to stop and think,
about what it is you need,
Soon I realize it probably isn't me,
that is when my heart truly bleeds.

My body becomes weak and eyes start to tear
as I start to get scared.
My biggest fear is that it isn't me,
and that you never even cared.

However what I've come to realize is
dreams are for dreamers and wishes seldom come true,
But when these tears fall,
they fall for you....

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I look out the window
the rain's pouring down,
thunders crashing loudly,
lightening's all around.

I know what you've been doing,
I really have no doubt.
Now tonight I'm forced to wonder,
where you decided to pass out.

You're supposed to be the role model,
the one that I look up to.
I'm still young, but was forced to grow up quick,
after years of taking care of you.

It hurts me more every day,
when you choose that bottle over me.
What did I do to deserve this?
What can I do to make you see?

My worst fears came true,
when the phone rang that night.
You got behind the wheel
and drove straight into that stop light.

Three words was all I ever wanted to hear,
but to mutter those words you didn't even try.
It hurts that you're gone but mostly,
I hate that I never got to say good-bye.

Family Pictures

My family is not one to have pictures taken of themselves. At any time. For any reason.

But, I convinced my brother to do family pictures as my parents' anniversary gift.

We look pictures yesterday, by a good friend of mine, Claire. She's awesome.

She is so talented, and I absolutely can't wait to see how they turn out.

I think my family actually had fun, which is shocking.

Thanks CLAIRE!!

P.S. Check out her website http://www.cphotography2.webs.com/

FearLess

"To me FEARLESS is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid.

To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them.

To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again....even though every time you've tried before you've lost.

It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them.

I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them.

It's FEARLESS to say, "you're NOT sorry," and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS.

I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright...that's FEARLESS too.

But no matter what loves throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS."

-Taylor Swift

I love surprises!!

I do like getting surprises, but I absolutely love giving them.

Tonight, a friend and I am driving over 2 hours to surprise my friend at her Last, First volleyball game. I told her there will be a surprise for her and she is getting annoyed because I won't tell her what it is.

Hopefully all the suspense will be worth it, when she finds out its just me, haha!