Sunday, December 27, 2009

The Snowiest Christmas Ever.

This year was the Snowiest Christmas EVER!
Last record for most snow on Christmas day was set in 1916 and was 5 inches.

We shattered that record this year with 9.2 inches of snow (just on Christmas Day.)

It snowed for 2-3 days straight. The wind made it worse - huge drifts everywhere.
Oh to be young again - I would have been in heaven to be able to spend my whole Christmas break building tunnels and forts in all those drifts and snow piles around town.

The whole state of North Dakota was pretty much shut down.
Solid red means closed. Dotted red means No Travel Advised. Purple means snow covered roads.

But, hey, We live in North Dakota - what else do you expect?!


Saturday, December 19, 2009

Lists...

I recently got my wisdom teeth taken out - so I haven't been in the mood to really blog much lately. And than family emergencies also caused some delay. but here I am.

I am a big fan of lists. Whether its a grocery list, a list of new songs or a list of chores. I love them. I was recently talking with a friend about our weaknesses for certain things...so today I decided to make a list of my "weaknesses."

Buying books, One Tree Hill, Dallas Cowboys, Poems, Christmas, Dogs, Ice Cream
Online Shopping, Boys, Massages, Blogs, Bread sticks, Hot Cocoa, saying sorry
texting, Facebook, Picture Frames, smiles, People magazine, salads, Lyrics...


and oh the list could go on and on....

Sunday, December 13, 2009

My Favorite Things....

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells And schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winter that melts into spring
These are a few of my favorite things
From the "Sound of Music"

The Wonderful Thing About Christmas...



There's actually so many wonderful things about Christmas that I could just ramble on forever. But some of my favorites are drinking hot cocoa or hot cider from my Xmas mug - always makes it taste better.
And driving around (with Christmas music playing) and looking at Christmas lights. No matter how big or small the town is - I love it.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Get along


Why can't people just get along
What a world it would be
If we could all just have fun
'Cause it don't do nobody right
When it comes down to a fight hey
Why can't people just get along

Well now things don't always run
smooth in a honky tonk
And some nights somebody's gonna
rub somebody wrong
And in those isolated incidents
We all loose our common sense hey
Why can't people just get along

Why can't people just get along
What a world it would be
If we could all just have fun
'Cause it don't do nobody right
When it comes down to a fight hey
Why can't people just get along

"Why can't people just get along" - David Lee Murphy

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

It's time.


It's North Dakota.


It's December.


It's Snowing.


I'm HAPPY.


I can't wait to build a snow-family.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Day 17 - Little Things

Day 17

I am thankful for the little things in life.

  • Smiles from strangers.
  • Planning surprises.
  • A hug from the cutest little boy - JP.
  • Someone texting me first.
  • Facebook.
  • That I will get to spend a week with my mom in Mohall in December!
  • Board games.
  • Hearing a new song - and falling in love with it.
  • Laughter at work.
  • Pay Day :)
  • Pictures - new and old.
  • Embarrassing moments - that make funny stories.
  • Lounging on a Sunday in my cowboys jersey - cuddling in my cowboys blanket.
  • Wearing flip flops year-round.
  • New baby cousins.
  • Puppies - and my dog.
  • Inside jokes.
  • Seeing my friends happy - that's the best.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Day 16 - 3 Day Work Weeks

Day 16

I am thankful for 3 day work weeks.

I believe every week should only have 3 work days. I'd be more than willing to work 12 or more hours those 3 days. If I could have every Friday off - Life would be grand.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Day 15 - Love

Day 15

I am thankful for Love.

Although I have not found "my love" - I am still surrounded by love. My parents have been married 27 years. They are still so in love. I catch them holding hands while sitting in a restaurant - or snuggling on the couch when my dad thinks no one is watching.

My grandparents were married for 60 years before my grandpa passed away. They held hands everywhere they went. They showed everyone in our family how love is supposed to be.

I am blessed with the love of family and friends. I wouldn't change that for anything.

But I am still looking for my "great love."

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Day 14 - Long weekends

Day 14

I am thankful for long weekends.

Even though this weekend is a long one for a sad reason (funeral) - I am still thankful I get that extra nights sleep at home. And trust me - after last night I am thankful I do not have to drive 1.5 hrs back to my apartment.

Day 13 - Victory

Day 13
I am thankful for victories.
There is nothing better than a Dallas Cowboys victory.
The End.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Day 12 - Home

Day 12

I am thankful for home.

Who isn't? I love home. There's just something about being here that makes me calm down, relax, smile and enjoy life. I miss it here. I miss seeing my parents everyday, talking to them and eating supper with them.

I am SOO anxious to get my own house and make it a home.

I especially miss Sunday mornings - I would always get up and go crawl into bed with my mom and snuggle and watch tv. She'd usually watch and I'd drift back to sleep. I miss picking on my dad and vice versa. I miss coming home and my dog greeting me at the door and cuddling in with me at night.

Nothing beats home. It's the best. I am so thankful I am as lucky as I am.


p.s. I watched Home Alone tonight. Classic. :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Day 11 - Game Night with the Roomies

Day 11

I am thankful for a night in with my roomies - playing board games.

Oh my roommates - how I love them so. They are fun! Tonight we stayed up playing board games and giggling like we were little junior high girls again. Playing Dreamphone and Mad Gab. - It's a guaranteed fun night for all!

I recommend game night - for anyone and everyone!!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Day 10 - Tear-jerkers

Day 10

I am thankful for "tear-jerker" movies.

Last night was my weekly date night with my friend and her little boy. It's probably my favorite night of the week. We usually just sit around, and talk. Maybe make a trip to somewhere fun in town like the pumpkin patch. Last night we decided to get ice cream and watch a movie. We just happened to run to Target to get our ice cream and noticed My Sister's Keeper had been released that day. No matter how many times I watch that movie, it always makes me cry. Such a good good movie, and a great book as well.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Day 9 - Christmas Music

Day 9

I am thankful for Christmas music.

So what if it's not Thanksgiving yet. I don't care. I love Christmas music. I am what some may call a "Christmas freak." I love it all. I love singing to Christmas music in the car. I love the snow on the ground (in fact I wish we had some). I love driving around looking at Christmas lights, while listening to Christmas music and drinking cappuccinos.

I just bought a Taylor Swift Christmas CD.

And a Tony Romo Christmas Ornament.




It was a good day.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Day 8 - One Tree HIll

Day 8

I am thankful for One Tree Hill.



One Tree Hill is the only thing that makes Monday worthwhile. Even though two of the main characters - Lucas and Peyton are no longer on it - I still love it. It's still good. Every season - every episode. Every actress and actor. Love them all.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Taylor Swift's Musical Monologue

Maybe you've already watched it - maybe you didn't even know about it. But if you like Taylor Swift - I suggest you listen to her "Musical Monologue Song (la-la-la)" She did it on SNL a couple weeks ago. I have personally watched it about 6 times now. The whole episode I've watched 3 times. I love Taylor Swift - and her personality.

If you're interested in watching go to Hulu.com - or here is the direct link to her SNL episode:Taylor Swift SNL episode

Day 7 - Cell phones

Day 7

I am thankful for my cellphone.





They say a dog's a man's best friend - well my cell phone is mine. I always find myself texting a few select friends. I can talk to my friends all day long through texts. I can't go anywhere without it. It is always with me. I feel lost when I have forgotten it and I "freak out" when I have temporarily lost it.

Day 6 - Chapstick

Day 6

I am thankful for Chapstick.

I am pretty sure that my lips are always chapped. I have to have chapstick with me wherever I go. I have a tube that I take with me everyday in my pockets at work, one that stays in my car, one that stays in my purse, and one on my nightstand next to my bed. Every Christmas morning - there is usually about 10 tubes in my stocking.

Chapstick is my life-saver.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Day 5 - Movie Night

Day 5

I am thankful for movie nights.


Nothing beats a night at home. Cuddled up in your favorite (Dallas Cowboys) blanket. Enjoying some laughs, conversation, and a delicious bowl of popcorn.

Whether it's with friends, roommates, boyfriend/girlfriend, or parents - Movie night is always a good choice.

One of tonight's movie choices: The Ugly Truth.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Day 4 - Ice Cream


Day 4

I am thankful for Ice Cream.

I scream, You scream, We all scream for ICE CREAM!!!
Strawberry, Vanilla, Chocolate, Cake Batter, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough, Rockie Road, Pumpkin, Chunky Monkey, Cookies and Cream, Mint, Jamacian Me Crazy...oh the list goes on.

I love ice cream. I tend to eat pints at a time. I just can't stop once I start. It's so good. My roommate and I actually go to get ice cream every Monday night. Whether it's Dairy Queen, Cold Stone, Gelato D'Italia or just grabbing a quick McFlurry. It's one of our best tradition :)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Day 3 - Free Country

Day 3

I am thankful to live in a free country.


I am thankful to live in a "free country." Freedom of speech, religion, right to bear arms. I can vote and can walk down the street and not fear for my life. I feel safe when I go to bed and safe when I wake up. I am very thankful for the people that did what they needed do to so I can have these freedoms. Veterans and soldiers, I thank you!

Special thanks to Tyrel Gion, Killian Norton and Mike Tavis.


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Day 2 - My Dog

Day 2

I am thankful for my dog.



Yes, my dog, Josie. A shihtzu. She's 9 and she's mine. Although I can't have her with me now cause my apt doesn't allow pets. But she lives at home with my parents - mainly my dad since mom works in a different town all week. She keeps my dad company. He'll never admit, but he loves her.

She is always excited to see me and cuddles with me all the time while I am home. I was 11 when I bought her. (wow long time ago) I bought her with my money that I had saved up - $200.

I love and miss my dog terribly.


Monday, November 9, 2009

17 days of Thanks! - Day 1

Day 1:

I am thankful for my family.

Two amazing parents who taught me to love unconditionally, and who supported me no matter what. Who blessed with me the best brother a girl could ask for. Overprotective, playful, and funny - a giant teddy bear. I love him.

Grandparents who showed me that love is real and it can be forever. Who never missed any event in my life - no matter how big or little it was. Who gave me the best family anyone could ask for - one that always makes sure we are together for every holiday.

I am thankful for my numerous aunts, uncles, and cousins. Even though there are some of you I haven't seen in years, you are still my family.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Quick trip home.

Living exactly 108.95 miles (according to mapquest.com) from home definitely has its advantages.

Quick trips home to pick up my friends little boy from his grandparents - means calling up my parents and taking them and my brother out to eat after they spent the morning deer hunting.

Than take an extra fifteen minutes to stop at the house and look at the family pictures I just received that we took a couple months ago. (courtesy of white t photography) Laughing, smiling and "ooo" and "aah"-ing over our favorites.

I get just the ride dose of family laughter and jokes to last me until I get to see them again.








my dad really smiled - rare sight captured in a photo

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Need a laugh?

Enjoy a few of my favorite clips.


Taylor on Ellen



How I want my kids to react to their Christmas presents.



Kittens inspired by Kittens



Just a few of my favorites. I have plenty more, haha.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I know who it is, but I'm not telling...HA HA

Anyone recognize that?

I've been wanting to buy this for a long time, and the other day I was on Ebay, and just decided to go for it. Brings back so many memories and fun times. In fact, my roommate and I played 3 games of it tonight, and acted like we were 14 again fighting over the cutest boys.




Dreamphone
Definitely one of the best purchases I've made in a long time. You call the boys on the game, and they give you clues to find out which one likes you!! Anyone else play this growing up?!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Heroes in a half-shell




Ah Halloween - Nothing beats last minute costumes.
For a friend's birthday the night before Halloween, they decided 2 days before that everyone should just dress up in costumes. Leaving little to no time for people to come up with a good idea.
With costumes being so expensive these days, many resorted to home-made, which are usually the best. Here are just a couple pics of some of the great costume ideas.


(Bert, Ernie, and the Monster cookie were homemade)

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

'This is it'

Forgot to post my latest halloween costume
This was last years.
Put together in about ten minutes :)


Last night I went to the opening of 'This is it'
ah :) I love Michael!!
The movie is soo good (if you like his music).
It shows clips from some rehearsals as he was preparing for his final tour.
That concert was gonna be phenominal.
So even though I only got 4 hours of sleep before I had to get up for work today.
It was all worth it. So glad I went.
If you like his music, you'll like the movie!


Sunday, October 25, 2009

M.E.

Cowboys
(if you can't tell, i'm obsessed with them)
Hungry
(I'm always hungry)
Ready
(I'm ready for a new job...the applying process has begun)
Impatient
(When it comes to pretty much anything)
Stubborn
(It's a family thing...)
Tolerant
(I don't complain, I'll just put up with it)
Independent
(I'm 20 and provide for myself)
Natural
(I don't wear makeup on a daily basis, usually just on weekends - and only if I go out)
Excitable
(The smallest and stupidest things excite me the most)

Friday, October 23, 2009

4 years gone, but never forgotten.

Louis J. Jahner
April 20, 1986 - October 23, 2005
&
Kjirsten C. Carlson
April 20, 1989 - October 23, 2009
Gone, but never forgotten
Thanks for teaching me so much about life,
the importance of love and how a smile can truly change someone's day.
These two people were very special. Always smiling, Always happy.
They enjoyed life everyday and lived it to the fullest.
Without knowing it, they taught me how lucky I was.
I miss them everyday.







Thursday, October 22, 2009

This is Halloween.

Probably my favorite Halloween song.
Enjoy it while you look at these pictures....






Just a few pictures of my previous Halloweens...

Roommate's Boyfriend's carving this year.

Sonny and Cher (6th grade)


Getting into the halloween spirit.


Puppy dog (4th grade)


Just a pumpkin (baby)


My brother and I - Batman and Steve Urkel

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Sleep Texting...

Pictures in your mind.
Out of focus and unkind.
Picture Me.
I picture you.

So you know how some people sleep-walk. Well I "sleep-text." When I start to fall asleep or am sleeping and get awaken by a text, I will attempt to reply, but it usually ends in gibberish.
Last night, a friend of mine started texting me just as I was getting ready for bed. I didn't want to tell him to stop, because I don't get to talk to him very often. So I continued in the conversation. We were talking about working out, and I don't remember what I was trying to say, but I know it had something to do with the fact that I was dozing off to sleep...in stead I texted :
"Ross i'm dozil"
His name is not Ross, or anything close to that, haha. Of course he replied and was very confused. and I just said "night." haha. I love going back and reading what I "attempt to say" when I'm sleep-texting. It always guarantees a giggle.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Two is better than one....

Two is better than one - Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift.

Love it.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

My obsession....

Dallas Cowboys

Especially Tony Romo

adore his smile :)




& Marion Barber



I never miss a game. If it's not on tv, I watch the play by play on NFL.com. I'm saving my money, and next year I'm going to Dallas to watch them play for the first time ever live. I can't wait!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

I'm sick, it's crazy around here. School's have closed because so many kids were out sick.
Anyways, I don't have the brain power to make a creative entry....but this is a song that was written from a speech. I think it's awesome, and something everyone should read (or listen to). Sorry it's kind of long...but worth the read


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Everybody's Free (to wear sunscreen)
by Baz Luhrmann


Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’07
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now....

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you.

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on.

Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

North Dakota winters....



Well, according to North Dakota - it's officially winter.

We have the freezing rain and snow (sleet) tonight. It's been in the 30s this week and part of last week.
Amazingly enough, I'm excited for us to get dumped on with snow again like last year.

one of the blizzards last winter

Everyone just complains about it nonstop, and I just sit there and smile. It honestly doesn't bother me. As long as the roads are clean so I can get to work and back. I'm a happy camper.

It may be because I'm just such a sucker when it comes to Christmas. Everything about it makes me happy. I was in a bad mood today, until I ran to Herberger's to look for a coat, and accidentally found the Christmas stuff. It immediately put a huge smile on my face.

I love when you go on a vacation somewhere "warm" and it could be 60 degrees and they are in winter coats and all bundled up.

I'm a North Dakotan, and I wear shorts flip-flops year round. Yes, year round. There could be 6 feet of snow on the ground, and if I have a path cleared off to walk on, I'll wear my flip flops. It could be 3 degrees, and you could catch me wearing shorts to run errands.


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

'Tis the season...

It's getting to that time of year when everyone gets "jolly" and "stressed" thanks to everything that comes with the holidays. This is by far my favorite time of year, always has been.

Christmas: I love everything about it. I actually annoy my roommates because I get so anxious to start listening to Christmas music. The day after Halloween - is when my Christmas season is allowed to start! Can't wait!! But mostly just having the whole family together. I'm a sucker for anything that gets the family together!!

But this time of year, has also become a time of year when I do a lot of thinking and reflecting.

In a couple weeks, it will be the 4 year anniversary of the day I lost two friends in a car accident.

I wear a bracelet on my wrist everyday "KC & LJ - Forever in our hearts." I honestly have not taken it off in close to 4 years. It may sound weird, but I learned so much from them, while they were here, and once they were gone.

Then, two years ago in November, I lost my grandpa. Him and my grandma came to everything and anything that I was involved in. No matter what - they were there. That's what family does.

Finally...around this time last year, my mom was in a car accident. My mom is my best friend. She luckily walked away with a bruised finger. But she was literally about a foot away from having a semi drive right over her. Scariest night of my life, by far.

So this time of year is not only my favorite, but also one where I find myself doing a lot of thinking about life and death.

But no matter what may happen I know that I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for.
And that I am blessed with the best family - loving and always there.
I am lucky.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Everything happens for a reason - by Craig Lock

Sometimes people come into your life
and you know right away that they were meant to be there,
they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson
or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be;
your roommate, your neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover
or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them,
you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you
and at the time they seem horrible, painful and unfair,
but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles
you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power of heart.

Everything happens for a reason.
Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity
all occur to test the limits of the soul.

Without these small tests,
if they be events, illnesses or relationships,
life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.
Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life and successes and downfalls you experience, they are the ones who create who you are.
Even the bad experience can be learned from...
Those lessons are the hardest and probably the most important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them,
for they have helped you learn about trust
and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you,
love them back unconditionally,
not only because they love you,
but because they are teaching you to love
and opening your heart and eyes to things
you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count.
Appreciate every moment
and take from it everything that you possibly can,
for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before,
and actually listen,
let yourself fall in love,
break free and set your sights high.

You can make of your life anything you wish.
Create your own life and then go out and live it!

Drive-thru adventures...

I've always wanted to go through a drive-thru window and sing or rap a song like they do in the commericials just to hear the worker's reaction, and to see if they would get the order right.
This video they do just that. I love it.


Friday, October 9, 2009

♫ "She said I'll think I'll go to Boston..." ♫



I don't know why but for some reason I've always been obsessed with Boston.
I can't wait til I get to go there someday.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Indecisive....

Indecisive: adj., - unable to decide: unable or reluctant to make decisions generally or to come to a decision about something in particular.
That's me!
About pretty much everything. Except when I get into my "moods" when I just buy clothes, books or movies without second-guessing it - online shopping is a weakness.

Well one thing that I have been indecisive about for a very, very long time - a Tattoo. Everyone has their own opinion about them. My opinion, is I love tattoos with a meaning. To me - ones that have no meaning are pointless - but like I said, that's my opinion.

I want one to resemble how I've changed, and to thank those who helped me change - especially those who has passed away.

I am huge fan of crosses, and this is my favorite so far.

In the banner it would read:
"For God commands the angels to guard you in all your ways." -Psalms 91:11

Opinions?!?!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Some words

A few of my poems, or just random thoughts and such.......


Jump in the car
turn the key.
Full gas tank
now I'm free.

Headlights are on
foot's on the gas.
Clear road ahead
nothing more I could ask.

Music is cranked
windows rolled down.
Speeding my way
out of this town.

Tear off my mirror
not looking back.
I need to start over
and get my life on track.

Wasted my time
chasing after you.
But something changed
and that day I knew.

I wasn't for you,
You weren't for me.
It never would've worked
we weren't meant to be.

So I'm leaving,
gotta get out of here.
There's no looking back,
I'm not going to shed a tear.

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Every night I go to bed,
and start to dream of you.
I would force myself to sleep at night,
if I knew those dreams would come true.

I wish my tears could write love songs,
so that before they were through,
you would know just how I really feel,
and how much I care for you.

I often tend to stop and think,
about what it is you need,
Soon I realize it probably isn't me,
that is when my heart truly bleeds.

My body becomes weak and eyes start to tear
as I start to get scared.
My biggest fear is that it isn't me,
and that you never even cared.

However what I've come to realize is
dreams are for dreamers and wishes seldom come true,
But when these tears fall,
they fall for you....

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I look out the window
the rain's pouring down,
thunders crashing loudly,
lightening's all around.

I know what you've been doing,
I really have no doubt.
Now tonight I'm forced to wonder,
where you decided to pass out.

You're supposed to be the role model,
the one that I look up to.
I'm still young, but was forced to grow up quick,
after years of taking care of you.

It hurts me more every day,
when you choose that bottle over me.
What did I do to deserve this?
What can I do to make you see?

My worst fears came true,
when the phone rang that night.
You got behind the wheel
and drove straight into that stop light.

Three words was all I ever wanted to hear,
but to mutter those words you didn't even try.
It hurts that you're gone but mostly,
I hate that I never got to say good-bye.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Family Pictures

My family is not one to have pictures taken of themselves. At any time. For any reason.

But, I convinced my brother to do family pictures as my parents' anniversary gift.

We look pictures yesterday, by a good friend of mine, Claire. She's awesome.

She is so talented, and I absolutely can't wait to see how they turn out.

I think my family actually had fun, which is shocking.

Thanks CLAIRE!!

P.S. Check out her website http://www.cphotography2.webs.com/

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

FearLess


"To me FEARLESS is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid.

To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them.

To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again....even though every time you've tried before you've lost.

It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them.

I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them.

It's FEARLESS to say, "you're NOT sorry," and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS.

I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright...that's FEARLESS too.

But no matter what loves throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS."


-Taylor Swift

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

I love surprises!!

I do like getting surprises, but I absolutely love giving them.

Tonight, a friend and I am driving over 2 hours to surprise my friend at her Last, First volleyball game. I told her there will be a surprise for her and she is getting annoyed because I won't tell her what it is.

Hopefully all the suspense will be worth it, when she finds out its just me, haha!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

A weekend at home...

Nothing beats going home for the weekend....

Driving home with your roommate, and then hanging out with
that roommate for basically the whole weekend.

Friday evening golfing with my mom. Nothing beats the sound of a great golf shot.
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Mom and I: We don't get to have our quality time as much as we used to since she is on the road for work. We used to always do movie nights, or spend Sunday mornings in bed talking and watching movies. But now our quality time has changed to a couples hours running errands while she passes through oh her way to or from Mohall. Or our daily phone calls and texts.

I was also a part of the 2009 Human Tractor at tractorfest. I know you are all very jealous you weren't in it.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Counting the days...

As of today there is....


1 day...until I get to go home.

7 days...until I get to see him.

22 days...until my "big sister" gets married.

24 days...until One Tree Hill season 7 premiere.

32 days...until Autumn starts.

97 days...until Thanksgiving.

122 days...until winter officially begins.

126 days...until Christmas.

145 days...until I turn 21.

301 days...until my best friend becomes a McDougall.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

BUMMER....


....Kellen Lutz has a scheduling conflict.

He won't be at Tractorfest.

Thousands will be devastated.


Monday, August 10, 2009

If tomorrow never comes....


I don't know what it was at work today that sparked it....but something made me really start to think.

I recall the time when I lost two friends in the same accident. One was a classmate as well. I was thinking about all the people who came to their funerals. A packed gymnasium for both. In their short life, they touched so many peoples lives in positive ways. Always smiling. Always laughing. They both had an incredible ability to make a person laugh when they didn't want to.


I couldn't help but start to wonder if I have had a positive impact on that many people throughout my life?

Looking back at my life, there are people I have lost touch with that I wish I wouldn't have. But I gained so many more great people in my life.

I haven't done has many crazy and "spur-of-the-moment" things as I may have wanted to throughout my life. I always think of the consequences, and always base my decisions on what my parents will think.

I don't regret the way I've lived my life. I believe it's why I am still here.

But I still find myself wondering........If I died tomorrow, did I live my life to the fullest? Have I said everything I've wanted to say to my family, friends etc. ? If I died, would I be happy looking back at the way I lived my life?


If YOU died tomorrow, would YOU be able to answer yes to these questions?






Thursday, August 6, 2009

Long Distance Family...


"There is no long distance about love, it always find a way to bring hearts together no matter how many miles there are between them."



Ever since I graduated high school in '07, my family has been doing a "long distance" commute. My mom got a new job that she had wanted for years, but put her dreams on hold so she could be there for me during high school. I thank her so much for this.


But she is now an "executive director" (aka boss/manager) of a FSA office. For over a year she was doing training all over North Dakota. Basically living out of her car. She gave our family a big scare when she got into an accident. She was lucky enough to walk away with just a bruise or two, but had the semi been a few inches over more, it could have been fatal.


A few months ago, she finally got a job. As happy we were for her to finally have a permanent job, rather than traveling all over the state, it was in Mohall. Which is probably about 4 or more hours from home.


So her and my dad have been doing a lot of commuting. This weekend we are all going up there (dad, bro and I) to move her into an apartment. I hate that her and my dad don't get to spend that much time together. I know it's been hard on them both.


As of right now, our 4-person family is located in 4 different cities in North Dakota. A lot of miles, and hours on the road, but we are still a family, and try to plan it so we are all home on the same weekend.



The stars resemble towns that each member is in.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

There's nothing like...




...the feeling I get when I see Mott.


..a day off.

...strawberry ice cream.


...compliments :)

...meeting someone new ♥

...season premieres.


...going home for the weekend.

...knowing you made your grandma's week by just stopping by and saying "hi."

...being the reason for someone's smile.

...Taylor Swift live in concert.

...knowing that your best friend is going to get engaged before he pops the question.

...Family.